Feeling Amazing and So Lucky! <3
Never thought that I would find someone who is so much like me but also so different in the best ways :) Never have I felt so comfortable just being me. There’s no fighting or teeth pulling for him to tell me how he feels. He makes me finally feel like I’m perfect just the way I am. I’ve been smiling ever since the first time we talked on the phone and it felt so easy talking about anything. Then meeting face to face for the first time on August 12th for what was my first official date ever. I was so nervous on what to do shake his hand, kiss his cheek, or give him a hug. It turned out to be like we knew each other for awhile and just continued talking about anything and everything. We almost didn’t eat our dinner because we just wanted to keep talking :). Then we sat by fountain for an hour and continued talking and he kept his arm around me at all times which made me feel protected and very close to him. So happy that we kissed goodbye and that he called me when he got home, it was like we couldn’t stand that hour away from each other. I’m so excited and anxious for where this all will go and all the things we will do together. B&S <3
But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end
-Tori Kelly “Dear No One”
My mother tells me
that when I meet someone I like,
I have to ask them three questions:
1. what are you afraid of?
2. do you like dogs?
3. what do you do when it rains?
of those three, she says the first one is the most important.
“They gotta be scared of something, baby. Everybody is. If they aren’t afraid of anything, then they don’t believe in anything, either.”
I met you on a Sunday, right
one look and my heart fell into
my stomach like a trap door.
on our second date,
I asked you what you were afraid of.
“spiders, mostly. being alone. little children, like, the ones who just learned how to push a kid over on the playground. oh and space. holy shit, space.”
I asked you if you liked dogs.
“I have three.”
I asked you what you do when it rains.
“sleep, mostly. sometimes I sit at the window and watch the rain droplets race. I make a shelter out of plastic in my backyard for all the stray animals; leave them food and a place to sleep.”
he smiled like he knew.
like his mom told him the same
“how about you?”
I’m scared of everything.
of the hole in the o-zone layer,
of the lady next door who never
smiles at her dog,
and especially of all the secrets
the government must be breaking
it’s back trying to keep from us.
I love dogs so much, you have no idea.
I sleep when it rains.
I want to tell everyone I love them.
I want to find every stray animal and bring them home.
I want to wake up in your hair
and make you shitty coffee
and kiss your neck
and draw silly stick figures of us.
I never want to ask anyone else
— Three Questions | Caitlyn Siehl (via brokenpromisesanddbrokenhearts)
Don’t know what to do
It’s the new year and I thought I would be able to change and have a good start to the year but no. I have a great night out for a work holiday party and the next day is a mess. I still don’t drive, still can’t do anything for myself, I feel like any day now I will just break. If I only was able to just drive it would make life a lil easier, but I’m so nervous to actually do it.